When I was a child...

August 18, 2008

I read something on the internet that posed a very interesting question. "How would you feel in Jesus was in the next room waiting to speak with you?" I have been pondering that question in my own heart. My first response was I would be afraid, not afraid of Jesus but the reverance of Him who has created all things. The awesome wonder of His mighty power...There are so many things to revere about Him.

The next thing I thought was fear and I realized I had more fear about my life than previously thought. Fear to be alone, fear of failing, fear that I am not worthy..Oh my, it opened a door in my life that I thought was finished...However, being in an unfamiliar place, not knowing the language, not having established relationships is a very real fear...

Today I was walking in the city and was looking for a familiar place and got turned around...Now in the US, no problem, you just ask someone, if your a female, :) but when you are in a county that is unfamiliar and noone speaks your language fear is very real. I did find my way home and it was not a big deal but I further ponder and ask God to help me deal with the fear I am experiencing here. Please pray for me as God melts and molds me through this process.

Now on the other hand, I asked the kids here what they would do if Jesus was in the other room waiting to speak to them. Almost all of them said, "I would go and speak with Him." :)

When I was a child I used to speak like a child,think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. I Corinthians 13:11